Vixen

I was once called a vixen by Brittany New Years Day. Most of you should know exactly why she called me a vixen and I can't help but to agree with her. Neither can anyone else apparently. It seems, especially most recently, that everyone is deeming me some sort of sex freak or addict. The best part is that I'm not running around Hofstra fucking students, professors and/or Lackmann employees, but I'm just talking about it. And even when I don't talk about it, I exude it? I met Sam's friend the day she was flying back to Washington and she was apparently talking about sex more than usual (according to Sam) --and she blamed it on me! I think I mentioned sex twice? and didn't fully elaborate. Everyone, according to Maria, should call me Sex because I give off the sex vibe. The hottest in New College, eh?

Well, as a true vixen (because we all know what that means) I should pursue a career in sex. No, not selling myself on the streets to make money, but studying sex. Karen mentioned it a few weeks and it was a familiar idea; when I was younger I was always interested in sex (and knew A LOT) about it, so I figured I should study sex. (I mean, I gave advice about orgasms when I was in the ninth grade, sooo....) Well, when the opinion of my family still mattered to me, I shunned the thought of teaching sex to couples in need, or something similar. I have come into myself (no pun intended) much more over the years--with a few helping hands of course *wink*--and I have realized that sex just fascinates me. And according to Karen, I love sex. And it's true. It's more about the human nature behind it and how it's a necessary drive. Sex is a burn in our sex meat labeled groins that we all feel and it needs to be satisfied. So, as a true vixen, I think (but I'm not totally sure) that I will study sex in my future. I can do a lot with that, I think-- I can be a sex therapist and give people advice, because I already give PLENTY of advice, or I can study sexual patterns of animals and relate that to humans. Maybe I can even study humans and write a book like my good friend Kinsey. I mean, I love people, psychology and sex...so it works?

I'm just one of those people that is open about sex. I mean, I dont blab about experiences (because I'm a good girl), but I feel that it is one of those things that people don't talk about enough. How often do you hear chicks talking about masturbation? I mean Keri will leave the dinner table and say, "I wish I didn't have to go to work because my roommate isn't home and I could totally ______." And we don't talk about how we want to get off, or how we want so and so to do this or that to us. And I say why not? I just got off the phone with Freda about ten minutes, and it was really refreshing to talk openly about that kind of stuff. I guess it's just the comfort of being friends for so long, but we used regular girl lingo and neither of us felt bad about it. Or weird. Sex is nothing to be ashamed of. Especially if you enjoy it or you're good at it. And I feel like, just how everyone can dance, everyone is good at it, but they aren't taught because it's taboo, or they're afraid to show that side of them that exists deep down in their pee pees.

Just because I'm fascinated about sex doesn't qualify me to be a vixen. Trust me, I'm aware of this. But I was thinking about how the morning after, Brittany felt my shirt to see if I was wearing a bra and she was proud and said that I was a vixen for getting what I wanted when I wanted it. Yeah. And maybe history will repeat itself sometime soon? Who the hell knows.

So, you may think of me as a vixen. But they call me Sex.