I felt near as faded as my jeans

I like to keep myself trapped inside of myself.
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This is Fran Jar, welcome to it. There are holes sufficient for breathing, and glass barriers so you can see outside, but never leave. And yes, that is a very fancy screw-top lid. And it's very difficult to open. Don't worry, Buyer, it's possible to open it, you may need something to help you open it, that's all. A little bit of perseverance never hurt anyone, right? And this, over here, is where you would sleep, think, talk, breathe and wish--in this tiny space. This tiny space is conforming. You grow as big as your space, but it's safe that way, ya know? And we all want security. Oh, and it's empty inside this Fran Jar, so you'll echo inside plenty. You'll say all of your feelings and hopes and emotions, and it will just bounce off the glass wall and into your eardrum and laugh in your face again. But your thoughts are your own company this way, and we all love company. It's just very secure...It's really a great deal and I hope you consider the Fran Jar as your new resting space...Oh, the previous owner? Well, she tired of such a safe lifestyle, no worries. It's not that she hated her time in the Fran Jar, she just wanted to spread her wings and fly. Freedom is what they call it, I think...Free from what? Well, free from herself I suppose? Her old self. I believe she was conforming to her old self again and she wanted to leave. But ya know, these glass walls are so strong, she couldn't bust it. So she just left...Oh, well, I don't know why she's selling it to you...No, she wasn't happy, but I'm sure she wasn't unhappy either...It's a glass jar! With sufficient holes for breathing! And plenty of thinking space! How could you hate it?!...You don't want breathing holes? Or a sturdy screw-top lid?...Well, I believe she decided to let someone unscrew it for her. It took some patience and letting go, but I believe she decided to let him open it, ya know? To feel safe with him, she had to be scared first...I'm not sure how it worked out yet, Buyer, but she let him open her Fran Jar--or at least will try to let him, so it must not have been so horrible, ya know? ...Well, that's the terrific thing about the Fran Jar. It's good company until you're ready to want to be free and feel things. Then you're welcome to leave. It's just a matter of finding people who will do that for you, ya know? All in good time, my friend. All in good time...The asking price? Very cheap. Just your thoughts and your patience and understanding. She's not asking much...No, not at all! The previous owner would just like you to know what it feels like inside of a glass jar. What it feels like to live inside yourself for too long without anyone to console you--it's not sadism...You're willing to offer your patience, but not your understanding? Well, I'll have to ask the owner of the Fran Jar. Just know that you're missing out on a great deal...What deal? Well, your self-worth, Buyer!! Your self-worth is very important to yourself, and ultimately others. That is all the owner is trying to convey with this device...You will sacrifice understanding?!...Well, how great of you. I will notify her right away and let her know of your interest to not feel anything because you and no one else seems to give a shit....You have a great day too! Here's my number in case you'd like to do more business. Drive safely!
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I think it's about that time to let someone unscrew the jar lid for me. *sigh of relief?*