She cried in the kitchen to let you go

I can't recall a time which I have ever felt so detached from people. A part of me just doesn't care about some things anymore, in particular love. Searching for that someone seems like a lost cause right now, especially since I feel like the plan is just the plan. And I've been working extensively on my philosophy paper and I chose to write about love, and the more I write about it, the more frustrated I become. I can't put into words what exactly love is and I guess that is because one can't really describe what it is about love that differentiates it from any other human emotion. The past few days I have decided that if I never fall in love again, I'll be okay with it. Now, I know that this isn't true, because in a week I'll snap out of my indifference and I'll be all romantic again, but as of now, I've hit a brick wall. Being in love is a waste as far as I can tell right now. And some people just are not meant to love someone else in such a deep matter. I guess I'm just wondering why I am the way I am and people are the way they are and why it is the way it is. And love, something that I felt so strongly about, and something a few blogs ago I wanted to feel again, is not important and I hate love right now. It just depresses people because it doesn't last forever for any individual. Love itself is eternal--every human will feel love and know love--but that love won't last forever because we find new people to fall in love with or we lose focus about the imperativeness of love.

And I feel like I can just let all of this go and not care. I can leave school and the friends I've made here, I can leave home and the family that I have there and be okay because it was all a figment of my being. If I have a distinct path, I could just pick up and leave and not look back again. This life sickens me because we sit around and take advantage of what we have and do not care what happens to the world and the people that inhabit it. We are each a hypocrite and that truth makes me ill about the world in which we live.

And I went to sleep so happy and I woke up feeling like none of what I was happy about is actually worth it.

We should all just do it the peaceful way, man.

Never used your head

To find out what this whole thing meant