Please don't stop

It's kinda funny how you can sit back and watch things fall apart. It's like a fucking train wreck waiting to happen. Inevitably all good things come to an end. I guess it wasn't good from the start but I'm always optimistic. I see things and hear things and it's all going to burn to pieces. The best part about seeing things and hearing things is that I actually don't see or hear it. It's prophetic, but it's true. Obviously I'm being vague for specific reasons; venting with names is not an ideal way to open this discussion. I kinda think that nothing will result from what I say anyway because I'm usually "wrong" until I'm right...then I'm right. Go figure. Then I'm left to clean up the mess. I've known these people long enough to know how they operate and what will be said and/or done. It makes it easier to sit back and anticipate the worst. It's bad yet the worst is yet to come. Mostly I'm sorry for myself because I don't know what I'll do in the end. Yes, I'm being selfish with someone else's issues; I can't surround myself with dead weight. I try and try and pull and lift and drag-- I get exhausted and drop it so I can keep my sanity. I hope that's not what it comes down to. Fuck it. This is all indirect venting but it's easy when you're in the fucking dark about everything. Sometimes it's "easier" to keep things from me because I get "angry", but it's only disappointment. I know you can be better and smarter and I dont want those that I love to fuck up. So sue me.